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 So we've made it again I guess, yay...

Goals wise, I think i did pretty well though:

Draw every day - I did well doing small reference doodles and then there was inktober, but since then I've not done anything. I think it's improved it pretty well, I'm less likely to think something offends my eyes. Still lots of room for improvement, but tolerable.

Keep on walking - I did it and I think I'm now a "healthy" weight for the first time in my life. Just got to keep it off now.

Write 100k words - so i completed nanowrimo again, but my other stuff wasn't as much. Overall I wrote just under 90k words this year, but over 57k is unedited, which brings me up to a stupid amount of words to edit and rewrite, like over 120k.

Going places - we went to New York, which was exciting but also very scary and I'm not really sure I can say much on the whole thing without just feeling guilt and shame, as per usual.

Another activity - as I said, it was pretty unlikely, I haven't really done anything new.

Try new recipes - yeah... no, this didn’t happen. And the past couple of months I've been eating a bit crappily. Comparatively at least. Calorie wise, it's mostly been fine, but content wise, not so good.

It's been a bit difficult overall, I have a few goals that seem to step on each others toes. I fix on one and then ditch the other ones. I really wish I could work out what I really want to prioritise and find some way of balancing it all. But this year, I think I'm going to stick with a few things:

Draw every day - the small doodles really don't take long, I should be able to restart this and keep it up again, at least until something bigger gets in the way.

Write 100k words - so tantalising, so close to reaching it, this year I should do it, especially if I can do something like the sprints I did in november.

Get through the book pile - I still have a load from last Christmas in the pile and I got another load this Christmas. And then I need to be realisitic in what I want to keep and what I should get rid of.

Save money - I do need to just manage to at least write down my outgoings. Should be easier now that I'm not lending out money any more. And from there it should be easy for me.


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So 2015 was... I dunno.

On paper, I would say that it was better than 2014, but I really don't feel like that. I feel liek my aversiveness has gotten worse this year. I wish I could say that it's because I don't feel as anxious about the consequences of not doing stuff, but it's more like it's just less useful as motivation. I'm just more likely to freeze up entirely.

This has meant that I have literally had to be dragged into places. I feel very much like I have the brain of a toddler instead of a 25 year old.

In other news, this year I have been diagnosed with low iron stores, low B12 levels and hypothyroidism. This means that I have had 2 months of iron tablets, 6 injections and am now taking tablets daily for the last one. The last one also means that I get a prescription exemption which is nice - I don't know why hypothyroidism is singled out though. I think I've been into the doctors more this year than... ugh, you get the point.

As soon as I'd had the injections (I'd been on the levothyroxine for a couple of months at this point too), I was asked if I felt better. I really don't. Which is a shame, as I was hoping all of this was a symptom of the above, not its own thing.

Anyways, what have I done this year?

I've been on my first work trips and gained a minion at work
Been to Berlin twice to see my Dad
Went to see WTNV again
Drew every day for #inktober
Wrote 50k words for NaNoWriMo

There's probably other things I should say but meh.

I didn't really set any resolutions last year, was kinda working off the ones left from the year before. I'm currently doing the one thing I've been aiming for the last few years and moving out. This does mean that at the moment I am really haemorrhaging money, which makes me feel very uncomfortable, despite it being what I've been saving for. I know that I could have done this a lot cheaper but that requires time and effort which I struggle with at the moment.

So yeah, pretty much the usual wah fest, despite there not being much reason. Nothing changes I guess.
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1. Pass Driving Test - Done!

2. Get Car - Double done!

3. Stop lending - Mostly done, but I haven't been paid back that much.

4. Move out -Still hinging on 3. Also I am still very attached to my disposable income and not very confident in whether or not I'll be able to manage.

5. Learn German - Still doing it although I've been a bit lax recently. Need to pull my socks up.

6. Go abroad - Still haven't done this, although it would help if my dad knew what he was doing and whether he had some temporary work. Might try for some time in July or August, because I'll probably be holiday'd out in June.

7. Improve a skill (craft) - Need to draw more, I've not doen it as often as I'd like

8. Find something to replace walking - Well hopefully I'll be LARPing more often and I'm trying to find something else to do as well.

9. Cook more - Need to do more cooking. I did some baking last month which was nice, but I've fallen back on everything recently.
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