New Year, New Blargh
Jan. 7th, 2016 11:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ifeelsodirtySo 2015 was... I dunno.
On paper, I would say that it was better than 2014, but I really don't feel like that. I feel liek my aversiveness has gotten worse this year. I wish I could say that it's because I don't feel as anxious about the consequences of not doing stuff, but it's more like it's just less useful as motivation. I'm just more likely to freeze up entirely.
This has meant that I have literally had to be dragged into places. I feel very much like I have the brain of a toddler instead of a 25 year old.
In other news, this year I have been diagnosed with low iron stores, low B12 levels and hypothyroidism. This means that I have had 2 months of iron tablets, 6 injections and am now taking tablets daily for the last one. The last one also means that I get a prescription exemption which is nice - I don't know why hypothyroidism is singled out though. I think I've been into the doctors more this year than... ugh, you get the point.
As soon as I'd had the injections (I'd been on the levothyroxine for a couple of months at this point too), I was asked if I felt better. I really don't. Which is a shame, as I was hoping all of this was a symptom of the above, not its own thing.
Anyways, what have I done this year?
I've been on my first work trips and gained a minion at work
Been to Berlin twice to see my Dad
Went to see WTNV again
Drew every day for #inktober
Wrote 50k words for NaNoWriMo
There's probably other things I should say but meh.
I didn't really set any resolutions last year, was kinda working off the ones left from the year before. I'm currently doing the one thing I've been aiming for the last few years and moving out. This does mean that at the moment I am really haemorrhaging money, which makes me feel very uncomfortable, despite it being what I've been saving for. I know that I could have done this a lot cheaper but that requires time and effort which I struggle with at the moment.
So yeah, pretty much the usual wah fest, despite there not being much reason. Nothing changes I guess.
On paper, I would say that it was better than 2014, but I really don't feel like that. I feel liek my aversiveness has gotten worse this year. I wish I could say that it's because I don't feel as anxious about the consequences of not doing stuff, but it's more like it's just less useful as motivation. I'm just more likely to freeze up entirely.
This has meant that I have literally had to be dragged into places. I feel very much like I have the brain of a toddler instead of a 25 year old.
In other news, this year I have been diagnosed with low iron stores, low B12 levels and hypothyroidism. This means that I have had 2 months of iron tablets, 6 injections and am now taking tablets daily for the last one. The last one also means that I get a prescription exemption which is nice - I don't know why hypothyroidism is singled out though. I think I've been into the doctors more this year than... ugh, you get the point.
As soon as I'd had the injections (I'd been on the levothyroxine for a couple of months at this point too), I was asked if I felt better. I really don't. Which is a shame, as I was hoping all of this was a symptom of the above, not its own thing.
Anyways, what have I done this year?
I've been on my first work trips and gained a minion at work
Been to Berlin twice to see my Dad
Went to see WTNV again
Drew every day for #inktober
Wrote 50k words for NaNoWriMo
There's probably other things I should say but meh.
I didn't really set any resolutions last year, was kinda working off the ones left from the year before. I'm currently doing the one thing I've been aiming for the last few years and moving out. This does mean that at the moment I am really haemorrhaging money, which makes me feel very uncomfortable, despite it being what I've been saving for. I know that I could have done this a lot cheaper but that requires time and effort which I struggle with at the moment.
So yeah, pretty much the usual wah fest, despite there not being much reason. Nothing changes I guess.
