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ifeelsodirty ([personal profile] ifeelsodirty) wrote2014-04-15 03:40 pm
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24hr stuffs

I have a confession to make.

I don't actually know how to LARP. After four and a half years, I can't really roleplay and I don't know how to do anything more complicated than swing at things in an easy to parry manner. This is easy to disguise if you're at the back of the party, you can assume that you've said enough words even if you've got 5 second gaps of "What the hell do I say" in there.

In front of spectators, it's a lot harder to hide. It's also really embarrassing.

That's why I've only entered one competition in the four previous events, and that was only the casting competition in last years event. Combat is out and scouting is right out.

So I didn't want to bring Lilium out for IC reasons (I wasn't sure about how the tourney was going to be, so I was happy to play as I was sure I could put her in for some things, just not combat), and I didn't want to bring Fran as I would definitely be in combat. So I said I was probably going to monster and I was told that was good and that I might be able to have a low combat monster role. So I actually signed up in good time for once! Go me.

I got the brief that my npc was on a team and was a druid scout. That was ok, as I said above, I was happy to try a competition and as I didn't know exactly how the tournament was run, I wasn't worried.

Then the unprepared fights were declared. I was not ok. I was already outside of my comfort zone, playing a druid scout with miracles and now I was 5 minutes into the day and I was already fighting and I didn't know how anything stacked and what level anything was and ah ah ah AH AH AH AH AHHHHHHHHHH! (Gotta love that moment where your mouth goes stone dry). I just kinda plodded about trying to work out what the hell to do. The other guys won it and I had already fucked up by casting while holding swords, so I went into the hut and cried for a minute, then came back out for the next fight, in which I panicked massively, surrendered after taking 5 points of damage, ran off, locked myself in the toilets and basically cried for an hour. Every time I thought I was cam enough, my brain went back to it and I started again. After that I paced in the toilets a few mins trying to get myself to go outside, I went outside and hid around the corner and at last I got to the monster hut to have a drink.

It's a pity really, because if I had held out for 20 mins more I'd have been able to distract myself with the scavenger hunt.

I calmed down during the champion matches, as I couldn't really do anything.

I was lucky the scouting competition was pretty clear, so I could just walk around from box to box. Only problem was shaky hands, I think I broke a good few of the boxes.

The war game was ok as it was simple, so I could relax and just try and hit things and not get hit.

The rest of the night was fine, no big problems, except that I hit a wall around dinnertime and couldn't really shake it off without stuff to do. Standing around in the cold drained the rest of me, so I thought I would go to bed before I started crying again.

Hindsight is a wonderful thing, I should have just taken a run around and stayed up. I would have felt better as I didn't sleep well at all. I think I went to bed too cold, and so didn't warm up. So I woke up feeling guilty, grumpy and tired.

Morning roleplay was a good warm up into the day and I almost didn't feel too bad about it as I had time to clear up how things stacked and what damage I should be doing and taking. So I went into it at full tilt and was happier about it, even though I lost my arm. That set me up, so even when I panicked later and bowed out after a couple of points of damage, and when I got called out on animal leap (oh god have I fucked up again), I was ok. Glad there wasn't much more than that, I probably couldn't have taken it, but it left me feeling satisfied.

Then I got to do standard monstering, die horribly, the usual.

So I competed in combat for the first time in five events. I feel like I've gotten away with it, not like I'd do it again.

But for all that fuss, I wish I'd just played a character. I would have gotten something out of it.

[identity profile] weightofeons.livejournal.com 2014-04-16 11:32 am (UTC)(link)
OOC, I really enjoyed little bits of conversation with Kiara and the only thing *way* too much time spent lrping has done for me is gradually increasing the time inbetween instances where I feel like I've muffed it up.
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[personal profile] xanthipe 2014-04-16 08:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Heh, if it helps just remember that Marcus forgets the rules on a semi-regular basis - we all fluff things, and so long as it's not being done on purpose to gain an unfair advantage no one minds but ourselves.

If you're ever monstering this sort of event happens again, try to get a heads-up on what you're doing a couple of days in advance and make yourself a cheat-sheet? I've resorted to that before for NPCs, and it does help.

Congrats on taking out Caled regardless, I think that you were one of his biggest threats in all the fights due to our power-up combos...and those boxes broke regardless.

[identity profile] weightofeons.livejournal.com 2014-04-16 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
"Sorry I couldn't overcome the druidness"
If you mean druidic stats - first, I had no idea you'd taken out Caled, have only heard about that this evening. I'm guessing I was out and down at the point you did it, but that is awesome.
Second, no one should listen to my opinions on druids. Or at least don't treat them as mainstream. I stand by them, but the majority clearly don't agree, which probably means they're wrong. I just don't think so. Blah blah.

"Chiara" - ah! Sorry!

"kinda disturbed by the Kingdom's weak-ass Nature"
This is a lot of Lomax's attitude to Druids - Chiara voiced what Lomax believed was the problem with all Druids when she just casually stated that Nature always got its way. It was actually really character affirming to have the actual declaration by one of the enemy.
He has much to say about Bader Druids, but can't write a report until he's back in his own lands (at least, he assumes anything he posts will be read as it crosses the border :P ).

...I don't know what to say about the sane comment. I just don't know what to say... ;)

"I think as time has gone on, I feel worse as I feel I have less of an excuse for getting it wrong."
There's a massive discussion to have there, but the short version I think is that there's no need to excuse anything. We're just there to have fun. Nothing else really matters - forget roleplaying, forget fighting well, go out and have fun and relax and everything will slot into place when it slots into place. If it doesn't, or takes ages, then that's the way it is - as long as you're having fun, there's no problem, because you're not disrupting anyone else's fun. Seriously.

[identity profile] magicaddict.livejournal.com 2014-04-16 08:37 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* You shouldn't be having to distract yourself from feeling like crap. If you were ruing the fact you didn't manage to last long enough to distract yourself with something, that's bad, and I wish there were something to do to make it better. This GM has had it hammered home beyond any quasi-doubt now, at least? Others who read this will as well? Steps can be taken to at least try to minimise the lack of fun and emphasise the fun?

Also, if you mucked up the stats, it didn't look that way from the outside.
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[personal profile] xanthipe 2014-04-17 11:37 am (UTC)(link)
Would it help if we kept an eye out for it and, if necessary, came and provided a distraction of some form? Or would that be worse?

[identity profile] greg-r.livejournal.com 2014-04-17 08:50 am (UTC)(link)
I'm really sorry that you had such a bad time on Saturday I had no idea *hugs*.

I think you did about as well as you could as an animal druid, coming from someone who plays one similar to the way yours seemed to be stated and in the way the rules seem to imply they should end up. (rant on animal druids cut because of wrong time and place) you claw-beasted like a boss against caled, taking down a foe that nobody else could have, sort of Lomax pulling out the really unpleasant stuff. A contest like that will never be the place for druid stats to shine as people will have caster support and animal druids fall over to a stiff breeze of power damage.

[identity profile] greg-r.livejournal.com 2014-04-17 02:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes you can :) I'm glad you enjoyed that piece of RP as well, I certainly did. And sorry I thought that everyone that knew smithy had heard that news by now, I'll have to try harder to get IC news out.
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[personal profile] xanthipe 2014-04-18 11:34 am (UTC)(link)
Two, and Kavara has a great-great-graddaughter :)

[identity profile] greg-r.livejournal.com 2014-04-22 09:45 am (UTC)(link)
*nods* If you want the full scoop then I direct you to my LJ account (this one) for bad fan-fiction :P I thought that I'd made a point of mentioning them wherever possible but it's possible people who he doesn't talk to much would have missed that (related note: sorry for only just realising that I didn't really talk to Aniseed all weekend).